Yay!! I got a spankin' coming!!!

Okay... I feel a little more comfortable sharing some more...

Seems that my 20th reunion inspired me to take some dance lessons last September. Turns out that I had no idea what I would learn!

I discovered that I was deathly afraid of being judged for my skills and failing. In fact, I've pretty much never failed without a good excuse. Here I was facing something that did not come easy to me with no way out, excuse wise. I floundered for months, not really learning much of anything due to my worrying more about stupid stuff than just learning.

Finally, last November, a dance started to click. The Foxtrot. Still sucked, but seemed that maybe, just maybe, I might actually learn how to dance something halfway decently.

After a few dozen private lessons I started really getting it. So after the holidays we really started working it and I've received several compliments since, both in the studio and at a local dance club.

So, I've been working it even harder. Basically I take 2 hours of group lessons in whatever on Mondays and another 2 hours of whatever on Wednesday. This is everything from Swing to Lindy to Latin to Smooth dances.

However, I also take about 3-6 hours of private lessons each week also. This week I took around two hours yesterday, a little over an hour today, will take 2 hours tomorrow, an hour Thursday, and the plan is to attend a dance Friday Night, another Saturday Night and possibly another Sunday afternoon.

Then I will really knuckle down next week, since I am competing in Foxtrot and Tango next Friday... *gulp*

So, it seems I have changed. Worked my arse off tonight. Struggle with Standard Rhythm Running Steps in my Foxtrot with onlookers. Not a great feeling, but I am pretty much over worrying about that shit anymore. Which feels very good, but strangely odd also.

I just don't worry about some stuff that I did before. Even did some East Coast Swing with my daughter at the grocer's the other day. She couldn't believe it!!!

Now... I still want to hear from some others. And also some support. Truth is that I am insanely nervous about failing this upcoming Friday. I don't want to go back to my old ways though, so I will fall on my face before I back down though.

Now I am tired and my feet hurt !! Goodnight ASep!