That is what most of you don't understand... This is HUGE. I HAVE fought in the ring and it was less scary. I have 38 years telling me I can NOT do this and only a couple of months saying I can.

Additionally, Melissa is not really a help, since she is not judged... boring details.

I appreciated your reply though Shutter. What you did is surely as big, but we all have our issues I suppose. I've also been to war. Not nearly as scary as this.

And to Lisa - if you can think of some things you KNOW but don't Believe you will understand. I am afraid of finally really really failing. And I am deathly afraid of letting Melissa down.

It is not the contest I fear - it is the changes I am undergoing.

And at Noodles - Love ya Brother.